....a million push-ups later

...and I can honestly say I feel a little bit stronger.  Both physically and mentally.  Last week was a tough week for me.  Five days with no power, a busted knee, a cut toe, a dog fight, and a million push-ups later, I wanted to quit.  I felt like I was not moving fast enough, not doing enough, not jumping high enough.  Instead of posting on the blog, I took my message to Facebook.  I decided to share my feelings with these new folks I have affectionately named, "my crew".  I was able to work through the negative self talk and made a commitment to myself.  No matter what happens, no matter how tough it gets, I will NOT quit.  Quitting is not an option!  I have given up on my personal journey too many times to count!!

I wish I could say that this journey began for me on June 25th.  My personal journey began years ago.  It's been a constant battle and to be honest, it's a journey that I have never been fully committed to.  I have tried just about every diet, shake, pill, and DVD that promised quick weight lost.  Hell, I even considered gastric bypass.  The pills and shakes, they all worked...at first.  I lost some of the weight, and just like many stories I've heard before, the weight came back and brought some fat friends along to play as well.  When you have struggled with weight for as long as I have, you will try just about anything to shed the lbs.

I am learning a lot about myself in this journey.  I realize that a big part of the reason why I have never been able to lose the 100+ lbs that I want to lose is because I have always found some lame excuse to stop doing whatever crazy diet I was doing at the time.  I have also put every person, thing, and job ahead of myself and my goals.  This week I've learned that I am stronger than I thought and that it feels good to put myself ahead of everyone else.

Since taking on the journey, I have noticed that people respond differently to me when I say I can't go out to dinner because I am going to workout.  Some people are supportive and some folks and just down right freakin' rude!  I read an article a while back.  It talked about the 5 people you spend the most time with and how they affect what you eat.  Looking at my five, I truly believe this to be true. Four out of my 5 folks eat and drink whatever they want and NEVER workout.  They are also ALL overweight with health problems.  Think about your "five"...are they helping or hindering your health and fitness goals.  My top five...were certainly hindering.   Since starting the journey, I have picked up 2 new folks that I talk to daily, and as always, hubby is very supportive.  I am not replacing my folks, but I have to surround myself with people who are doing the same things as me, "life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change." 

So this week, as I begin week 3, I have given myself a new challenge.  I am making a promise to myself to post at least 2 more entries before Sunday and post EVERY meal that I eat this week.  I have been a terrible "crew" member because I have not been doing this.  If I am going to be fully committed to this, I need to embrace all parts of this journey!

With my new self-challenge, I am off to bed and looking forward to the weigh in on Monday (just kidding...I am actually dreading it).

peace, love, and hair grease!